About
this is where I keep it real
even when real isn't pretty
it's all true though
cocaine made me snowblind
there are worse things than drugs
I am:
a recovering drug addict
but I still stumble and fall
and I'm trying to not self-destruct
Tell me what you think at
iamchrysanthemum(at)ymail(dot)com
My name is Kimberly
but I wish it were Chrysanthemum
I live on a farm in Texas with my daughter Jordy
our two dogs, Kerouac and Bijou
our horses
Thunder and Calamity Jane
and our blind calf Stormy
I am also:
searching. real. imperfect. changing.
addicted. certifiable. witty. jaded.
melancholy. sarcastic. hot headed.
creative. invisible. troubled.
a survivor. insecure. stubborn.
emotional. a train wreck. bookish.
angry. grounded. superstitious.
complex. melodramatic. faking it.
careless. reserved. proud. a writer.
bent. opinionated. wandering.
hopeful. wishing. guilty. intimidated.
lonely. heretical.
I do not want to glorify drug use.
I will not vilify it either.
It is what it is. My experience.
Nothing more. Nothing less.
I'm trying to learn and grow.
I'm trying to survive my own decisions.
I like:
getting e-mail. honesty.
true friendship.
sharing common experiences.
arguing.
facing down demons.
tamales. good books.
learning something new.
beating back death.
music as religion.
poetry as scripture.
tattoos.
seven-minute frosting.
second chances.
ice cold Coca-Cola.
celery.
passing for normal.
chances to be authentic.
I used to be a cop.
I put people like me in jail.
I didn't feel any compassion for them.
I didn't even pity them.
I thought they were weak.
Karma is a righteous bitch.
I want to:
be known.
love myself.
be healthy.
find my way home.
be loved.
have friends.
tell the truth.
say no.
believe in myself.
be proud of myself.
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